My Heart!

 This may be a topic I could get a lot of grief from. I am going to write it anyway, because I need it. 

"Keep you heart with all vigilance, for from it flows the springs of life." Proverbs 4:23 

"Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you, bind them around your neck and write them on the tablets of your heart." Proverbs 3:3

"My son, keep your father's commandments, and forsake not your mother's teachings. Bind them on your heart always; tie them around your neck. When you walk, they will lead you, when you lie down they will watch over you; and when you are awake they will talk with you." Proverbs 6: 20-23

"My son, keep my words and treasure up my commandments with you; keep my commandments and live; keep my teachings as the apple of your eye; bind them on your fingers and write them on the tablets of your heart. Say to wisdom you are my sister, and call insight your intimate friend." Proverbs 7:1-4

I am sure I could go on and on with verse like these. If it is in the Bible I believe it is TRUTH! And that this truth should be held in the hearts of Christians. Now, I know that what I am about to say will cause many problems, but this is my belief, God can only change my mind on this, not people.

My Cardiologist wishes for me to have a heart transplant, He sent me to another doctor for that reason. The other doctor said I was not a candidate because of weight and that I had not been on the correct regiments of medicines to help correct the issues yet.  All doctors think that their ways is the right way. I believe the Great Physician's way is the Best way! He will lead and guide the doctors in a plan to help my heart survive. 

Until then I will not have a transplant, ever as far as I am concerned, the verses above are the reason why. For virtually my whole life God has been writing His truth on my heart. I have kept it close to me all this time. Why would I give it up. Maybe my heart is just getting to full of all the goodness of God and that is why it is failing, It just can't hold anymore! I do not want a heart that I have no idea where it comes from or who it has been following. I do not want to start all over. 

I know there are people who think this is stupid. And maybe it is. If God tells me differently, I will listen. I have known for more than a year that my doctor wanted me to have a transplant, I have been seeing the other doctor for exactly a year. This past week and right now, I think my heart is having issues. I was in the hospital for 3 days thinking I was having another heart attack. They say I am not. The doctor who wants the transplant said yesterday before I cam home, "I still think you need a transplant". I said, "I am not having one." He said, "we will see." like I didn't have a choice. I have a choice! 

I need the heart God gave me. If it fails then that is the way God wanted me to go. If I can continue to live, by using the meds and losing weight, then that was God's plan. I will not have a transplant though! 

I leave you with another verse, because I have peace with this decision because my heart is guarded....

"And the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus," Philippians 4:7